My birthday could not have come at a better time. The week before it, I found myself kind of in a slump. My temperature had not risen, which indicated to me that I had not ovulated. I was beginning to feel fearful, sad, and a little in despair. Could there be something wrong with me?
It was difficult to write. Sometimes I feel inclined only to write about my positive and hopeful feelings. If I am going to keep this blog honest though, it's important that I share that I don't always feel optimistic. Sometimes the longing I feel to be a mother weighs very heavy on my heart.
The wonderful time I had this past weekend with my family and friends was a great distraction for me. I really needed it. There were times when I would catch myself in a daze, but for the most part everyone kept me thoroughly engaged and not lacking of a smile. I am very thankful for it.
I am also thankful that on my actual birthday, I took an opk and saw another bfp!
Matt happened to be in my office when I got the result. Yes...I know, it's kind of weird that I had it in my office, but I don't like hanging around in the bathroom for the 4 minutes it takes to get the result. I was doubtful of the bfp at first. But...
..the next morning my temperature spiked!!
Finally! From this information, I believe I may have O'd on my birthday! What a nice gift, huh?! To confirm this, I need to see a sustained rise in my temperature of at least 3 high temperatures. This morning it dipped down a little bit, but that is not uncommon. I'm anxious to see what my next few temperatures will read.
Moving forward, I am going to try and blog through my feelings of "downess". I think it helps me to not hold those feelings in and let them fester. Wish me luck!
Deep breath, -Natalie
I'm going to be a mother!...at the end of the summer!! This is my journey to get there & some fun along the way.
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